Father can I cry yet?

O dear father I try so very hard
To know thy will and follow through
All day and all night
Seek thy will to do

I know I am so very flawed and weak
I struggle with my every task
and rarely succeed
to do what thou asked

Yet, still I try to be a joy to all
Trying my best to serve others
Help all in my path
Treating all as brothers

I find my every pathway blocked by thee
Even as I'm told to go on
Through my sweat and blood
Till my strength is gone

I am left so very weak with nothing left
With no hope of relief in sight
Beaten to the ground
Looking for some light

I know I will not falter in my step
I know thou wilt help me onward
I just ask of thee
One thing dear Lord

Through all this pain, Father can I cry yet?
I am tired of always being strong
My heart is tired
Of always being wrong.

Thou hast always blessed me immeasurably
Given me gifts I haven't earned
Strength beyond my own
Knowledge I haven't learned

Yet as my body falls apart inside
I tremble with pain and tiredness
Wondering whats next
In my loneliness

I know not how but that I will manage
To rise and fight another day
I just wish I could cry
Release the tears at bay

I know the way will always be hard
I did not want it otherwise
I just seek some peace
Before the sunrise